The first post!

So I guess I should start off with a little something about me, but what?

...thinking...

I'm a new mom, and I'm sure that will come up quite a bit because when I say "new mom" I mean, my daughter isn't even a month old yet, actually she isn't even three weeks old until tomorrow. She's the most beautiful little girl I've ever seen, and it's only since her birth that I have come to understand what my mother meant all those times she would say, "When you have kids, you'll understand." I'm completely amazed by how fast she has changed over the last couple weeks and there aren't enough words in the world to describe the love I have for her. I'm sure that someday I'll have to tell her that she'll understand when she has kids of her own, and just like every other daughter in the world, she'll roll her eyes at me and say, "okay" as she trudges off to her room. All the things that used to drive me crazy about my mother suddenly come back to me...like spit baths, how many times did I say I would never do that to MY children? Yea, well, I've already licked my finger to get formula off of her face...more than once. How about the times when I didn't get what I wanted, and I would say, "When I have kids, they will get whatever they want, because I'm not going to be a mean mom!" However I know that I'm going to be called the "mean mom" at some point simply because I wouldn't buy the hottest toy, or wouldn't let her go out with her friends, just because I didn't know who they were. As I walked through Target the other day, I realized that the mother's day cards are out and so I stopped to look at them. I was looking for a card for my mom, which used to be an easy task:

1. Grab a card, preferably a cheap one after dad stopped buying them for us
   
2. Write a little I love you inside
3. Sign name below that
4. Seal envelope
5. Give to mom

However, this year, I actually read the cards that I picked up, and instead of look for the comical ones, I was looking for a card that truly says how much my mom means to me. Would it completely shock you to hear that not one single card said what my mom truly means? I mean, I'm probably going to have to make a card, and it's worth it, because my mom is worth the time and effort that I will have to put in it as I try to put everything she means to me into words. It isn't going to be easy, and it's not that becoming a mom made it all clear, but it definitely showed me the other side of the table.

Don't worry, you don't have to run out and buy a card right this minute, mother's day isn't until May 11th, but maybe you should start thinking about what your mom means to you.